i do love x'asia. but i know that she isn't good for me. i still have feelings for her. but we're over. clearly over. never a chance ill ever be with her again. she's a charmer and she knows it. i was never innn love with her. more like hxc lust.
yeah, i'm sorry too. but i knew it was over before it even started. i just didn't expect for it to hurt this much. and just all the family shit thats been going down it's been rough and i put my walls back up and was just emotionless when it came to anything else.
i want to be with you, but i feel like i should do it properly.
I always hurts more than you think. always. and im sorry things haven't been good at home. and I hope it gets better soon babe. also, if you don't put your walls up around me anymore I'll do the same. cause god knows I've set them all back up.
consider the walls down then. no need to apologize, i'm just trying to remember that how my mom is is not my fault. and that life goes on. things happen for a reason.
i'd atleast like to do it over the phone where it's more personal ahaha
well then, considering you haven't got a phone at the second and I'm about to pass out from lack of sleep(not litteraly but..ya know), and it's like 11 and my mom doesn't know i'm on here still. how about you call me tomorrow on your house phone? or after you get another cell.
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ReplyDeleteoh thank fucking God.
ReplyDeleteyou have no idea what it would have done to me if you'd said xasia.
I'm in love with you too Cailee (not that you didn't know that).
But where the hell do we go from here?
i do love x'asia. but i know that she isn't good for me. i still have feelings for her. but we're over. clearly over. never a chance ill ever be with her again. she's a charmer and she knows it. i was never innn love with her. more like hxc lust.
ReplyDeletei don't know.
I'm sorry she did that to you Cailee.
ReplyDeleteWell you know what I want to happen but to be honest what happens now...is up to you.
Completely up to you Cailee.
yeah, i'm sorry too.
ReplyDeletebut i knew it was over before it even started. i just didn't expect for it to hurt this much.
and just all the family shit thats been going down it's been rough and i put my walls back up and was just emotionless when it came to anything else.
i want to be with you,
but i feel like i should do it properly.
I always hurts more than you think. always.
ReplyDeleteand im sorry things haven't been good at home. and I hope it gets better soon babe.
also, if you don't put your walls up around me anymore I'll do the same. cause god knows I've set them all back up.
how so?
consider the walls down then.
ReplyDeleteno need to apologize, i'm just trying to remember that how my mom is is not my fault. and that life goes on. things happen for a reason.
i'd atleast like to do it over the phone where it's more personal ahaha
thank you. consider them down for you too.
ReplyDeletewell then, considering you haven't got a phone at the second and I'm about to pass out from lack of sleep(not litteraly but..ya know), and it's like 11 and my mom doesn't know i'm on here still. how about you call me tomorrow on your house phone? or after you get another cell.
will do
ReplyDeleteI'll be home all day so whenever you like.
ReplyDeletebut tbh I need to go to bed like soo
I'll talk to you tomorrow baby.
night
xo