I haven't vanished. I got the flu over the weekend. I've been super fucking busy the past couple days. I'm sorry.
But seriously, if you're giving up after ONE rough week where I've been sick/trying to peice together Christmas - then I guess I know how much I ever meant to you.
Becasue you make me feel so danm unwanted. when we talk on the phone you're always so busy doing other things I feel like I'm interrupting you. And the reason we haven't talked much in the past week is because I've been hellishly fucking busy and tbh, you hurt me. When I told you I was stressing out about christmas and trying to put us together I wanted, no I needed you, my girlfriend, to encourage me, to tell me everything would be fine. But no. I got a "why don't we put this on hold...I can't answer you when you ask if you make me unhappy" and you didn't even say I love you back. It hurt, plain and simple, it hurt. So I protectd myself. I have no idea anymore.
i was being honest. i'm fucking sorry. do you want me to lie and say ohhh baby it's fine i don't care if i'm unhappy, no big deal!!!11 i deserve better than that.
Okay, that's so not even what I was fucking talking about. I wanted you to encourage me about taking care of the holidays and shit. But srsly wtf. I didn't want you lie about how you felt. I've never wanted you to lie about how you feel. I'm sorry, this is spiraling into somethign way more then it ought to.
Then can we start this shit over? Please? I'm sorry I've been a dick lately, I was just been stressed and I unfairly took it out on you. I shouldn't have. & I'm sorry I didn't call or make enough time to get online. I was just being stupid. Plain and simple stupidity. You're not messing things up, I am. I want things to go back to normal too. I love you with all my heart and I'll do anything to put things right.
I haven't vanished.
ReplyDeleteI got the flu over the weekend.
I've been super fucking busy the past couple days.
I'm sorry.
But seriously, if you're giving up after ONE rough week where I've been sick/trying to peice together Christmas - then I guess I know how much I ever meant to you.
you never make the effort anymore.
ReplyDeleteyou never call. we hardly talk.
what are we even doing?
Becasue you make me feel so danm unwanted.
ReplyDeletewhen we talk on the phone you're always so busy doing other things I feel like I'm interrupting you.
And the reason we haven't talked much in the past week is because I've been hellishly fucking busy and tbh, you hurt me. When I told you I was stressing out about christmas and trying to put us together I wanted, no I needed you, my girlfriend, to encourage me, to tell me everything would be fine. But no. I got a "why don't we put this on hold...I can't answer you when you ask if you make me unhappy" and you didn't even say I love you back. It hurt, plain and simple, it hurt. So I protectd myself.
I have no idea anymore.
i was being honest. i'm fucking sorry. do you want me to lie and say ohhh baby it's fine i don't care if i'm unhappy, no big deal!!!11 i deserve better than that.
ReplyDeleteOkay, that's so not even what I was fucking talking about.
ReplyDeleteI wanted you to encourage me about taking care of the holidays and shit.
But srsly wtf. I didn't want you lie about how you felt.
I've never wanted you to lie about how you feel.
I'm sorry, this is spiraling into somethign way more then it ought to.
i don't want to.
ReplyDeletewhy would you stay with someone who makes you unhappy though?
ReplyDeleteI don't want to hurt you.
and im scared you're supposed to be my only one and im messing it up.
ReplyDeleteThen can we start this shit over? Please?
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry I've been a dick lately, I was just been stressed and I unfairly took it out on you. I shouldn't have. & I'm sorry I didn't call or make enough time to get online. I was just being stupid. Plain and simple stupidity.
You're not messing things up, I am.
I want things to go back to normal too.
I love you with all my heart and I'll do anything to put things right.
i just don't want to get hurt anymore.
ReplyDeleteNeither do I.
ReplyDeleteI don't just want to lose you.
Please forgive me.
We can work on this.
I can work on this.
I'm so sorry.
i, i don't know
ReplyDeleteThen think about it, okay?
ReplyDeletei have been and i just i don't know what to do.
ReplyDeletei'm so incredibly conflicted.
conflicted in what way?
ReplyDelete(I'm not tyring to be thick, I'm just trying to understand.)
God, I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteI feel like I'm hurting you all over again.
I'm such a dick, srsly.
Just, do what's best for you.
Don't worry about me.
can we pleassse stop talking on here omg
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