you make my head dizzy
wish i could cough up daisies
id pluck their little leaves off
and put them on your forehead,
on your navel
made of jelly

stabilize me
show me who you've become
as i pray i'd disappear into my t-shirt
and you'd disappear out of yours
my skin becomes metallic
my sweat sending jolts of electricity to the ground
this is who i've become

you've become systemic
& i'm sick of wading in this darkness
waiting for a searchlight to blind me and tell me all i've done wrong.
 but you're a red red red blink of light
you tickle my dystopian arms
and rupture my dystopian lips
i am red too

tell me all of this is fake,
that all i need a good dose of reality
that i have two good legs to stand on
tell me to walk away from this

i can almost hear my boots click beneath the ground
and the sound matches that of the woman behind me
we are both walking just to take up space
just to reach every corner we can before it's too late
one day the earth will rupture around us
and all the tree roots will grab at our ankles
and we will let them...

the sun will rise without us
it will not miss us
we'll be cosmic dust
something to be swept up
the moon will sink without us
we'll be cosmic dust
something to be swept up...

so long ago

4 traditional haiku

becoming thirteen-
hair follicles grow where a
milk mustache once was.

golden paws scuttle
across the open field,
dog problems at noon.

curious eyes strain
in what once was a lit room-
figures in the dark.

snowflakes glide into
the holes in my tattered gloves,
coins in Styrofoam.

saying goodbye

two belligerent
hands chase each other.
tick, tick, tick.

your lips tasted of
pure solitude,
this is the last time.

my fist unclenches
and stretched to meet your back,
i wasn't ready.

I look back to find
the atoms that make your smile
have left the platform.


those are the four haiku i had to write for CW.
all of them had to have a similar theme, and i chose
"saying goodbye" in light of you.
tell me what you think?

dear love,

here's hoping that these words will make you smile.
because when you smile, you light up my whole night like millions of tiny fire flies that come out to play in the summertime. this is an attempt at explaining with carefully chosen words how much i love you. do you remember the first time you went on a roller coaster? that feeling that you get, like tiny monarch butterflies are tickling your tummy? that's how I feel when I look into your eyes. the truth is, i never ever thought someone like you would come into my life. i thought i was doomed to a life swaying from one relationship to the next, never really knowing what true love feels like. you opened up my eyes to what true love is, and i will never be the same again. ours is the kind of love that puts a smile on my face when i'm about to cry. the kind of love that makes you whistle a jolly tune that you don't know the name of. a love that could stand through the most horrendous natural disaster and not display so much as a crack. it kills me to think that youre hurting right now. that your little cheeks are pale, and not rosy. that your little head that i adore so much is causing you pain. ive been so worried about you. i love you more than i ever thought possible becky. so, here's hoping that i made you smile, even if it's just a little. i love you :)

my hands have a pulse.
why can't two co-existing things be canceled out
like they do in pre-calculus?
i'm starting to look like one of the seven dwarfs.
if only i were lost in some magical world.
i want out of this one.
i feel incompetent. not good enough.
i'm lonely.

6 word story attempts

ground control to major tom; fuck.

3AM. the mountains part from you.

dear lighthouse, where is she now?